hollow

these days....
college getting quiet and hella scary
what else if this shit happen again
its the final next week...

people are starting to study and discuss about stuff
hahaha...i miss this time of month
people are struggling for it
to score perfect CGPA of 4.0

hahaha

yup,scoring 4 flat is a must
to maintain it is damn fucking hard!

but in my mind,just RANtai Art event coming around the corner
yeah! RANtai! last year was a blast! moshing and stuff!
hahaha
fun!
cant wait...and counting days to the event

off with sleepyheads and insomnia...
hahaha

TTFN

day pass by

yes....such a boring day for me today
the college is like a mere GHOST TOWN!
and suddenly i remembered...today is my college CONVOCATION DAY
duh! pft! freaks me out for a bit there...

but still...nothing to do just
surfing and streaming and blogging and eating and chilling and others
(so many "and"....hahahaha)

anyhow, i miss the launch of YouTube LIVE on saturday! damn it!
so wanting to watch it live! haish! it is not the same watching it today

am seriously bored to death...waiting time to pass by
huu

anyone hit me please? pretty please?
=|

im okay...

friends,no worries about me....
im okay...i think
yes i am stubborn

but dont worry,give me time to grasp and stand again
no worries!

=)

If you're not the one

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

nobody knows why

yes....im sick! only few people that knows im sick
why?
cuz i dont wanna everyone know
cuz i dont wanna people sad

why am i sick?
cuz the anwsers that only i know
cuz i am the most stubborn person in this world

been held at the hospital is so not cool,
but what else i can do,nothing...
doctor gonna put some check on me about my "insomnia" for the past 1 week,
my mum and friends all are mad at me bout this "insomnia"

but seriously guys,i cant sleep!
how am i supposed to sleep when something is not right
how am i supposed to sleep when something is incomplete
how am i supposed to sleep when something is missing
how am i? tell me guys? tell me!

yes im hurting inside, torn apart day by day!
why? i tried everything but still it doesnt work!
why? why this time its hard!

why

i cant get some sleep...
i want to sleep! my eyes are getting sored!
1week for now with no sleep!

tomorrow gotta go to the hospital...mom getting worried too
my insomnia is getting worsed!

insomnia ends or continues?

there it is....
time goes by,as i didnt slept for a week now...
when i sleep time goes by fast but when i awake time goes by slow...
why? i always keep wander bout it by myself but hey,no one really knows

insomnia ends today? or insomnia continues again?
i dunno...it is decided by my eyes...
still i cant rest fora long time...
something....but what?

im off to go somewhere only i know...
with nothing to bring...
just me,myself and i

aku

aku...
siapa aku?
siapa diri aku?

kenapa jiwa ku kekosongan?
kenapa jiwa ku kesunyian?
kenapa jiwa ku tidak lengkap?

masa ku rasakan begitu laju,
laju hingga membunuh ku,
membunuh ku dengan perlahan,

masa....ya masa...
ramai berkata masa itu emas,
ada yang berkata hargailah masa-masa mu,
ada pula berkata masa bergerak ke depan dan tidak kebelakang,

hati ku sakit tapi aku tidak sakit,
hati ku kosong tapi aku tidak kosong,
hati ku hancur tapi aku tidak,
hati ku berdegup laju seumpama berlari tapi aku tidak,

kenapa? apa? bagaimana?
aku sendiri tidak tahu...
kenapa aku begini?
apa yang membuat aku begini?
bagaimana terjadinya ini?

persoalan yang tiada penghujung,
persoalan yang tiada jawapan,
selamanya begini? sampai bila?
aku tidak tahu...

aku mahu kembali seperti dulu
aku mahu kembali seperti sediakala
aku mahu semuanya

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deep down in my heart,
something doesnt feel right,
something makes me feel incomplete,
pieces of me scatterd and shattered in millions,
i try to fix it but it is incomplete,
i try to fit it but it doesnt fit,

what is it im searching for?
what is it im looking for?
what is it im seeking for?
what is it and still i cant find it...
why?

im lost with no direction,
im empty with nothing to fill in,
im scared with nothing to afraid off,
im lonely with no one by myside,
why?

questions revolves around me,
question with no answer,
question that never ends,
question which i cant never answer,
why?

i shed thousand of tears these nights,
why these tears came down tremble to my cheek,
why these tears came down without i realise it,
why?

is this reality?
is this fantasy?
which one is true?

sesuatu

malam...
langit malam selalunya indah,
penuh dengan cahaya bulan dan bintang,
menyinari malam seperti selalu,

tetapi...
malam ini sinar mu tidak kelihatan,
sinar itu diselubung awan yang tebal,
bintang-bintang pun tidak kelihatan,

kenapa...
malam ini langit kosong,
tiada bulan mahupun bintang,
hanya kegelapan menyelubung,

kosong...
aku di sini keseorangan tidak berteman,
hatiku kosong dan tergantung
seperti kamu langit malam,

apa...
aku mencari sesuatu tetapi tidak tahu apa,
barangan? kata-kata? apakah ia?
aku sesat di dalam diriku sendiri

sesuatu...
dapatkah aku rasakan?
sakit? takut? sunyi? ingin?
apakah ia?

persoalan demi persoalan,
jawapan tidak dapat ku cari dan huraikan
haruskah aku berputus asa atau teruskan?

sesuatu harus aku lakukan
tetapi apa

deep down in me

as day turns night,
my soul become emtpy,
im lost in the world of nothingness,

is it painful?
is it fear?
is it sadness?
is it hopeless?

neither i know nor i not,
the feeling i cant explain,
which one is it?

im gasping for air,
like outer space with no air but with stars,
even though im here in this world,

something is missing,
something is incomplete,
something is not right,
something is unspoken,

but what it is?
what is it?
even i cant explain it,
in spoken words or in writing on a piece of paper,

so many question revolves around me,
im dying inside bit by bit,
walking down the path that been choose,

is it right?
is it wrong?

even i cant explain it,
even i know what it is,

something is wrong,
something is not right,
something....

time goes by like water,
from second to minute,
from minute to hour,
from hour to day,
from day to weeks and carry on....

im hanging....
cause
something is missing,
something is incomplete,
something is not right,

but what is it?
question that always revolves around me

i need air

song again...
i need my air!

insomnia continues....

day 7 of no sleeping...yes! 1 week people...
still with no sleep....my eyes are sore & restless
im getting stoned!

oh god! if this is 1 of your test,i accept it and face it with might!

im gonna be OK!
(i do hope so ASAP)

forever

this song....makes me sad and only i know why
i will shed in tears just by hearing these song
omg! im totally lost it now!
argh!

damn it you guys!

haish....you guys are making me shed in tears
thank you for everything...im fine ( i guess...)
no worries aite?

if i dit tonight,i am happy that i have you guys by my side

dear god! help me please!

something is missing

im so thanking god ALLAH SWT cuz giving me a wonderful and great friends
i much prefer to call them SAHABAT. You guys know who you are.

i know you guys keep wandering whats up & wrong with me but
dont yall worry,im fine....just that feeling something is wrong & missing
and i dunno what to do

i am so abssolutelyfuckinglost! yes! lost!

damnit! 5days with no eyes shutting....what am i think of?
only me & god knows...but seriously i cant stop thinkin past few days

i need to go somewhere that calms me
somewhere that relax me

someone! help me!

=|

no tittle to put

yeah! 5days in a row!
wee! no sleep n my heads getting crazier!
damn it! i want to get some sleep!
my eyes are getting sore!

lost empty missing

haish...4days straight with no sleep,
i dunno why i cant sleep something feels doesnt right
and i dunno why...tryin take some sleeping pills but still no effect
and i got a headache! ouch!

4days of no sleep? what imma think of?
im crazy? haha! i dunno why i cant sleep and i dunno what im thinkin of...

haish!

anyhow...happy day for ya!
cheers!

and here are some song(playlist i prefer to called them) that ive been hearing for 4 days of no sleeping...

enjoy!
TTFN

=|

Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God
Aqualung - Brighter Than Sunshine
Ari Lasso & Bunga Cinta Lestari - Aku dan Dirimu
Bon Jovi - Ill Be There For You
Boys Like Girls - Thunder
The Changcuters - I Love You Bibeh!
Chris Brown - Forever & With You
Coco - Mengintai Langit
The DEY - Give You The World
Duta - Cinta Antara Kita
Estrella - Stay
Fallout Boy - Im Like a Lawyer (Me & You)
Frankie J - More Than Words & Obsession
Hujan - Hiba
Jason Mraz - Im Yours & Lucky
Jonas Brothers When You Look Me In The Eyes
Kugiran Malaya - Epilog Cinta
Lailas Lounge - Mawar Khayalan & Wajah
Lifehouse - You & Me
Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
Malique ft Najwa - Kau Yang Punya
Meet Uncle Hussain - Pari-pari Bawah Angin & Hilang
Melee - Built To Last
Mohd Jayzuan - Gone , From Me To You , Si Dia & When Youre Around
Najwa - Your Love
No Doubt - Dont Speak
Phlowtron - Oh Cinta
The Roots ft Erykah Badu - You Got Me
Shayne Ward - If Thats OK With You
Sixpence Non The Richer - Kiss Me
Sean Kingston ft Paula DeAnda - Theres Nothing In This World
Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
South Jordan - Fatal Flaw
Sonar - Cuma Dia
Too Phat ft Siti Nurhaliza - Dua Dunia
TI - Whatever You Like
Timbland - Way I Are
We The King - Check Yes Juliet & All Again For You
Yellowcard - Only One

please stay....

my eyes cant stop flowing with tears when im listening to this song...
i dunno why...
anyhow,enjoy!
=|



Estrella "Stay"

Sound straight from the twilight
Has me up all night
I can't fall asleep 'cause I keep thinking of you
And I saw a shadow outside my window and it's you.

All my sorrows flew away
Hush, keep quiet, hear me say
I don't ever want you to go
Please stay
With the moonlight dancing free
And there's no one but you and me
There's no reason to go astray
Please stay.

Making up a story
It's the way you're looking at me
If you think that this is funny, it's just you.

Try and think about it,
If you're heart is closed don't lock it,
Keep your keys back in your pocket,
Think this through.

All my sorrows flew away
Hush, keep quiet, hear me say
I don't ever want you to go
Please stay
With the moonlight dancing free
And there's no one but you and me
There's no reason to go astray
Please stay.

Please stay with me
Just stay with me
and I will take you to Foreverland
Just stay

snap! snap!

yup yup!
some pictures taken using Yap's Canon 400D
just testing the camera actually....
here's the pic!
=D










leave some comments ya?

TTFN
=)

demamdemamdemam

5th of November in the year 2008
i fell sick! damnit! i hate getting sick!
argh! flu also! man! this is worse!
i need someone to care me & cuddle me & everything!
sayang...im so need you right now!
=(

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Who is taking you?
- Nadia Marissa Bt Mazlan, the girl that completes me what im incomplete

Where would you go?
- go? go where? can u be more specific...

What's your plans?
- my plan is to stand by her,comfort her and everything she want me too

Will you make the first move?
- i dunno =P

Are you in a group, or is it a single date?
- single....duh!

Is it formal?
- again...please be more specific -_-"

Are you going to get comfy?
- yes! definitely! of course! =)

Will you treat?
- wtf! specific please!

Do you parents like your date?
- yes they does and they lookin forward to see her =)

Do you parents even know?
- yes they do! =)

How would you end the night?
- hmm....lemme think about it...that's mine & her to know and NOYB! =)

Would you go out with that person again?
- of course i would! she is ONLY ONE!

Why or why not?
- why? haish! sometimes survey can be pretty dumb! yes becasue she is everything to me!

Will you still talk to them online?
- of course i will =)

Will you think about your date all night?
- 24/7 never missed it!

Do you kiss them on the cheek or lips when you say goodnight?
- both plus with hug! =)

Do you love them?
- them? or her? =/
this survey is starting to annoy me a bit

What would you say to them now?
- sayang,happy 2nd month we've been together. I love you so much sayang!
im with you forever, nothin gonna change my love for you, imma give you the world to see your
smile and i will burn in hell for you just to keep you safe! ILYSM! =*