missing

i miss you so much!
yes i do! just like the lyrics in with you by chris brown
"I need ya boo I gotta see ya boo And the hearts all over the world tonight, Said the hearts all over the world tonight"
yes! i miss you sayangku nadia marissa!
i want u right now!
=(

We are back!

yes! were back!
hell yeah im happy! who wouldnt!
thank you sayang!
i love u more than ever!
yes! i do sayang!
never ever change even a bit!
i need her...
she completes me!
no one else can complete me just her!
yes! she is nadia marissa bt mazlan!
my everything, my all, my cintahati, my cintamati, my superhuman!
we are superhuman to each other!

*im so happy and it makes my tears came trembling*

aaaa

wake up late...again
pftt! nothin to do
bored!
someone kill me please?
ahahaha!

xD

empty

empty Definition

empty (emp′tē)

adjective emptier -·tier, emptiest -·ti·est

1. containing nothing; having nothing in it
2. having no one in it; unoccupied; vacant an empty house
3. carrying or bearing nothing; bare
4. having no worth or purpose; useless or unsatisfying empty pleasure
5. without meaning or force; insincere; vain empty promises
6. Informal hungry

yeah...i feel empty
why? how? when?
i cant give you answer to that
cant somebody save me please?

countdown to 2 0 0 9

haish...life is fun..
i quote the saying
"some say live life the fullest"
am i living my life the fullest?
even i dont have the answer to that question
hahaha...i aint bluffing....this is SERIOUS SHIT!
2008 is going to an end soon...i managed to achieve 80% of it...
20% of it? snap! like snapping a finger it just gone like that...(some of you might know why right?)
2009 just around the corner...whats my new year solution & hope?
oh so lot to list it down here...so i will tell u my top wish for the 2009
here are the few....

*i want the old times back
*i want achieve that 20%
*i want HER back ( i do love you & i do miss you...)
*i want my life back
*i want everything back to the way it was

that is few of my solutions for 2009...how bout you guys?

today,went out again...
yeah...went to KLCC for lunch,then call bie...
he was around there at BK
so i went to meet him up...
yeah! happy to see him...
going to shop for his BIG prom nite! ahaha (no offense bie...jokin!)
meet up with bella,deanna,fatin and keroll...oh! not to forget
faqir (i dunno how to spell his name...sorry bro!) and the funny adi!
but when arrive there...not feeling hungry and i seems i dunno why
hanging out with them till around 8 something then headed back to home

yeah...KLCC,Pavillion you named it
all pack! and i forgot its the weekend =)
but what i hate most is the feeling of empty & lonely
damn i hate this kinda feeling...its killing me inside
watch all the couples happy together and stuff
damn it! why can i be like that person?
is it hard? is it difficult?
even i cant answer that...haish
what gonna happen to me next?
does anyone know or care?

boring day

today i wake up around 12
damn! its late...my head hurts
and i got weird dreams...damn it!
same dream for the past few days
something is going to happen...but i dunno what or why

checked my phone...gotta few message's & missed call
from friends and someone i dont know...haish
my head hurts! headed to bathroom take a shower
aaahhh! that feels good...but heads still head...
today lunch is meggi tom yam! ahaha then take some pills

off to bukit jalil...sendind some sketches and reviews
then head to BB for a while...meeting my bro diddy
its been a while i didnt see him...he change a lot past few months
its like almost a year didnt see him! he is getting matured
i always idolize him even though gets in fight often with him

after catching up things and stuff,headed to cineleisure
ahaha! yeap! watching LOS dan FAUN to cheer myself up!
it is funny tho but...i feel im alone watching it...everyone with their loved ones
but me? haish! only god knows!

after head to mcdonalds for dinner...then head back home
take shower and write this blog...

today quote is taken from Abu in the movie KAMI
"hidup ini memang palat,tapi esok masih ada"

is it true or not,i dunno
TTFN
off with headache!
ouch!

tiada siapa yang tahu

cinta itu buta bak kata orang
bisa membutakan apa saja dilihat
semua indah belaka tiada yang tidak
apa saja yang dilakukan bersama
susah bersama senang pun bersama
tapi itu dulu...kini apa yang tinggal hanyalah

luka, duka, kenangan,
dimana silapnya?
dimana salahnya?
tiada kata-kata untuk mengungkapnya
kenapa semua berubah?
aku benci akan perubahan

hati hancur remuk berkecai
tiada siapa yang tahu apa yang berlaku
segala janji dan impian yang terbina
hancur dalam sekelip mata
tinggal habuk-habuk kenangan
tiada lagi harapan ku lihat

aku berdiri seorang
aku berjalan seorang
biarpun di tengah manusia yang sesak
aku tetep seorang
adakah kau tahu?

adakah ini tipu helah atau kebenaran dari kau
mana satu aku sendiri tidak tahu
aku sudah buta disebabkan oleh cinta
rasa seperti semalam sahaja ianya berlaku
tetapi hari ini segalanya musnah
seperti nya hati aku ini
umpama kaca jatuh pecah seribu

aku kembali seorang lagi
tanpa sesiapa
apa yang aku tahu
tempat ini tiada siapa boleh menggantikannya

save me

save me from this loneliness
save me from this emptiness
save me from this pain & suffer

this place is dark
this place is cold
this place is hell

what do i need to end this?
can anyone out there save me?
is there really hope in everything?

save me someone
save me anyone
save me please

hanging out with KAWAN

yes!that day...will be forever remembered!
that day is so fun! dunno what to do after sending the review
so why dont hanging out with them right?

so,i came early...like 3.30 something
then fatin text say they will be late
so i say,its okay...wait & wait
and finally,they arrived!

im so happy to see bie! hahaha
he is getting taller! im getting shorter!
hahaha

talking & discussing about stuff
then eat at KLCC...then hangout till night!
here are some pics!
enjoy! and i do hope can hang out with them more in the future
hapPENING! ahaha

sorry guys! nice meeting fatin,bella,deanna & keroll!



arent both of them sweet? ;)



yes,this is fatin...she is finding some books to read



bie texting someone! who could that be?
p/s:- isnt that deanna's phone?



fatin reading,bie texting,deanna finding "uban" on bie's head



"uban" mission continues!

sorry

sorry
minta maaf
gomenasai

all thats refer to this one word 5 letters...

im sorry what ive done to you
im sorry what ive make you mad
im sorry what ive forgotten

im sorry...i do love you and need you

anonymous

is this what ive wanted?
is this right what ive doing?
is this right to treat it like that?
tell me?

im so confuse and deranged right now

what ive done?
what is wrong?
what is the problem?
please help me?

im a stalker,liar,pig,pushy and etc
yeah...u said it...thank you for hating me
something that once were a a decent dream
but now it became a worst nightmare

something i have to do to correct it
before the time runs out
something must have done!
wait and see what will happen next

no more lullabies,
no more song,
no more life,
no more hope,
we built it together for some time but
everything is crushed within minutes

why should it end like this?
why should it going haywire?
im not the one i use to be
im not the one i know myself
maybe because the hope was gone

off alone again with no one to understand
hard & cold again just like before

f u n k o t ?

yeah! back in damansara after out from
arrive there,been greeted most of my so called "blood brothers"
yes,i miss you guys like hell...its been a while like 3months rite?
after i left you guys for BANGI..

chill out at stall....waiting for afiq & wan returning from work
like shit! promised me at 6pm but late like half an hour! damn!
anyhow,it was fun....bringing back the memories of the old times...
just like malique rhyme in the song "OK feat Cat Farish"
"chop! dulu-dulu dah habis"

"habis ke?" thats what i say to myself...i dunno
life like shit nowdays for me...need to release it somehow...

later that night abu came to house....then waiting for najib arrive
he was late again cause got an appointment at the saloon...still stylo bro!
planning to go shisha at kota damansara...as we arrive there,
me,afiq,wan,najib & wan gemok are dissapointed like fucked up!
the place is closed! we were like dunno where to go...
then afiq suggest to watch a movie at cineleisure,he's treat...
without thinking long...headed there ASAP! someone BELANJA kot!
watch the movie "Cicakman 2 Planet Hitam"
it is bored but the best is in the movie was The Gingerboys!
yeah! cool! but still fun but not fun for me...i dunno why
haish!why eh?hmmm...thinking of it

l i f e ?

life?
what is life?
what is the purpose of life?
can anyone tell me?

love?
what is love?
what is the meaning of love?
can anyone tell me?

hope?
what is hope?
what is this hope for?
can anyone tell me?

what does this three have some unchained and neverend question?
what is life? what is love? what is hope?
anyone know this? anyone can tell me the exact answers?

some people say life is short,so enjoy it
some people say life is good,so live it
some people say life sucks, so bear with it
is it true? is it right? which one i do not know

some people say love is just a feeling, so feel it
some people say love's hurt,is it really hurt?
some people say love's blind,is it making us not to see?
is it true?is it right? which one i do not know either

some people say hope is everything we need, so where is it when we need it?
some people say hope is light & guidance,so where is it when you really need it?
some people say hope is the greatest power that one could have,so can it change and turn back time?
is it true?is it right?which one i really do not know either

question came one by one,
the anwser just hard to find,
neverendless question keep bugging

help me if there is life,i do need it one
help me if there is love,i so need it one
help me if there is hope,i really need it one

headache & heartache

pain! hurts too much!
way too much!
i cant take it anymore!
someone kill me please!
why this pain hurts too much!
why?

what if

if i die tonight...
what will you do?

just a question...and i do really wanna know
=)

dreamland OR lalaland

so which one is it?
dreamland or lalaland?
imagination or reality?
even my mind is messed up & fucked up!
oh god! please give me a sign!
if this just a test, i accept it & through with it with all my might!

recently in this week,
i felt unease,
i felt desolated,
i felt emptiness,
something is missing....
but nevermind, i guess it just my feelings playing around
just...hasih,maybe its nothing
better keep it to myself

off to somewhere and im listening to this two song over & over again
-superhuman by chris brown ft keri hilson
-kau yang punya by malique ft najwa

TTFN

boredom

haish...raya
this time raya is boring...
dunno why i felt this way...

even tho happiness is in the air, i feel bored
im bored! why?
im in crowded place but i feel like im alone
everyone laughing but i feel bored & empty

off to somewhere..to the place that calms & relax me...

raya?

yup! raya is coming!
not raya aidilfitri....its raya aidiladha!

hooray!

cant wait!

:))

lightpaintings

yes....i cant sleep and i dunno why
trying to but still cant close my eyes shut
anyhow, me and pajan learn something new called "lightpainting" from megat
hahaha...its fun tho playing camera and light...
so here's the pic

hungry?

yes! i am hungry!
waaa! damnit!

hahaha....actually im kinda blur to BLOGGING lately
heee

dunno why...you guys know why?
do tell me...please!

=)