wondering

well....i found this somewhere so im copying it & posting it
there's something bout this thingy
im keep wondering...let us think bout this aite? so read it carefully
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A student asked a teacher, "what is love ?" The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the paddy field and choose the biggest paddy and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, went through the first row..he saw one big paddy,but he wonders....may be there will be a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the paddy field, he started to realise that the paddy is not as big as the previous ones he saw.he knew that he had missed the biggest one, and he regretted !!!! So he went back to the teacher with empty hands.

The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but later when you realise, you have already missed the person...."

" What is marriage then ?" the student asked.

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

" The student went to the corn field...this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake. when he reached the middle of the field, he had picked one medium corn that he felt satisfied with, and came back to the
teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you have brought back a corn....you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe that this is the best one you are to get.... this is marriage ."

fall nor fail which is it?

yet again...im doing my old habit again
oh damn it! why im doing this?
i wanna change...really badly i wanna change myself
haish! oh god do help me during this time
i am so needing you
please guide me

i have no one else to turn on too
no one that cares & matters

dead boy's poem

Within this darkness, my heart does lie,
Forever burdened with regrets that ever linger.
And though my only wish is to die,
These thoughts, your voice does hinder..

Fallen from my fate,
I stumble my way to you.
Fallen from your love,
I'm faced with all that's true.

Burdened with my sins,
I tremble as I stride.
Parted from the companions,
Of those who lived and died.

A lethal dose is all it takes,
To make this misery end.
They claim knowledge on those things,
They can never comprehend.

They say they too have suffered,
They say they know the pain.
They say they feel helpless,
As I slowly turn insane.

Caught up in the dream,
Given time with you.
Caught up in the dream,
With the person you never knew.

Tell me is this who you expected,
Who you really wished to see.
Relay your outlook on my life,
And pass judgment down on me.

Call the verdict as you may,
Sentence to my strife.
Give me the pleasure of sweet demise,
Or imprisonment in life.

Cast me down from your kindness,
As I embrace this tasteless sigh.
For hell is life without you,
And heaven's tempting when I die.