holocaust

its hard being me...
it is,if only you knows how it feels
deep down inside in me
its empty and some pieces there is missing
where does the missing pieces gone?
that's the question revolves around me for the past this month
where is it? can anyone find it for me? i guess not
did i want this story to be like this? no im not, not even once i asked for this
hanging....left out....what else? this is what i felt deep inside
im just telling what i felt

i do LOVE you
i do NEED you
i do WANT you

whatever i tell you is always the truth, no lies & secrets
you are my everything.
im longing for you
im missing you
im not playing, or just throwing words, nor fooling around with feelings
this is what i felt deep inside, straight from the heart

serebrum reconcile

yeah...february
people do seem happy when this time do come around
but me? i dunno what to say...empty fills up this hole in me
pressure so much stuff nowdays and my migrain is getting worse
doc said gotta take care of myself...but deep down in my heart
no one knows whats happening and im trying my best doing it and THEY also know it
i cant even lie to them...this is me, im no pretender
i cant hide it even tho im trying my best...

i quote one of my friends favourite word
"life's a gamble,gotta do it"

man...i know lady luck wont be around when you need it the most
but what do we have to do eh? hmmm

people just blaming it on me, fine...its okay...
you guys dunno whats the real deal...
blaming is all i got as a present from you guys
nevermind...i do bear with it
if only you guys knew
what i felt inside
what i gone through

easier said than talking eh?

im all alone walking down this road
the path that is uncleared and dark

empty

february
finally,it came at last
the 3days of february is empty for me
3 important date to me
i felt so empty inside
can anyone or anybody realise?
i guess no